I
ran my first marathon October 16, 2011. It was exactly thirty-seven days after my
mother died. I trained through that
summer as my mother was ending her ten-year battle, her marathon struggle with
terminal cancer. I wanted to fight, not
as much as she did- but as a tribute to her incredible fighting spirit and to
honor all that I learned through her example as she lived by the words of
Jesus: “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his
cross daily and follow me” (Luke 9:23).
She
was the one who showed me the road, and taught me the tremendous value of the
cross. She may not have done it all
perfectly, but she surrendered everything to Jesus, and I know as I sat beside
her and watched her take her last breath that Jesus and the Blessed Mother were
right there to take her straight to heaven.
I know that heaven is the presence of
God. I know too that Jesus is present-
Body, Blood, Soul, and Divinity in the Blessed Sacrament. So when I go to mass, like today, Sunday, and
we kneel and look upon that elevated host, I know that heaven is right there,
and so is my mommy.
So
today I knelt and looked and thought, not for the first time, on how close my
mother was to me right then. My heart
was filled with such a joyful gratitude.
And I mentally gather up all the gifts I have, all the anxieties, all
the crosses, all those I love- I scoop them up and give them to Jesus. I place it all in His Sacred Heart and
recommit my longing to give back to Him some small measure. Let me do all for You Jesus!
No comments:
Post a Comment